Confessions, Confessions

• One chore that I really can't stand is emptying garbages. I don't know why, as it is one of the easiest chores to do, but I really don't like doing it. I will let it get as full as possible, and then ask Sam to take it out. I'm weird. Don't judge me.
• People think that I am afraid of crabs. They get this from a family vacation we went on where my dad scared the living daylights out of me with a crab. And ever since then, they all think I have a fear of crabs. Don't tell anyone this, but I don't have a fear for them. I actually like crabs. I may not like holding them, or playing with them or whatever, but I enjoy catching them, and looking at them, and eating them. No one believes me when I say that, but I just haven't wanted to break their hearts about it.
• I love multi tasking. At this moment, I am doing 9 different things at once. And I enjoy it, although it makes me forget what I am doing sometimes, I like being busy. This also leads to doing things at the last minute, but hey..what are you going to do!
• I have to have background sound going on. When I edit pictures, or doing cleaning, or whatever. I have to have the t.v. on, or my mp3 player on, or SOMETHING. The only time that I want it completely quiet is when I want to go to sleep. Then, any sound keeps me awake.
• I am a social bug. I love being out and with people. I know that I don't talk a whole lot, and it is something that I am trying to overcome, and because of this, people get odd first impressions of me. But I love being out and just being with people that like being with me. I hope that people actually enjoy hanging out with me, but even if they don't, I still enjoy it!

Ok, I think I will end there for tonight. Enjoy!

Dinner...

This is what Tanielle and I had for dinner the other night. I was very excited that I made it!! That I had to take pictures of the process. So...Tanielle and I had pasta salad, and popcorn chicken. Yummy, doesn't it sound delish? Well it WAS, but probably because I made it. So here is how I made it.
This is the final product. Doesn't that look SOOOOO yummy? You'll have to take my word for it when I say it does.

So it starts out by mixing Tablespoons of water, and oil, and some other herbs and spices.



Which gives you this yummy looking stuff.

Then while you have that sitting there, you can boil your water for the noodles.

Once the water is boiling, you put the noodles in and cook it for about 12 minutes or until slightly tender.

After which you drain the noodles. Isn't this exciting? (humor me and say yes)

You then poor the oil mixture into the noodles, and the result is that in the first picture.
Yum...are we ready yet?

This is the popcorn chicken. Looks good all laid out like that eh?

So that was our dinner the other night. Tanielle was SOOOO happy that I made it for her! I mean, I slaved away in the kitchen making sure everything was just right, that I had enough of everything and could cook it. Ok..maybe I didn't slave away TOO long.
Ok, maybe not at all.


Ooohhhh Yeeaaahhh, I am THAT good. ;-)

Confessions, Confessions..

• One chore that I really can't stand is emptying garbages. I don't know why, as it is one of the easiest chores to do, but I really don't like doing it. I will let it get as full as possible, and then ask Sam to take it out. I'm weird. Don't judge me.
• People think that I am afraid of crabs. They get this from a family vacation we went on where my dad scared the living daylights out of me with a crab. And ever since then, they all think I have a fear of crabs. Don't tell anyone this, but I don't have a fear for them. I actually like crabs. I may not like holding them, or playing with them or whatever, but I enjoy catching them, and looking at them, and eating them. No one believes me when I say that, but I just haven't wanted to break their hearts about it.
• I love multi tasking. At this moment, I am doing 9 different things at once. And I enjoy it, although it makes me forget what I am doing sometimes, I like being busy. This also leads to doing things at the last minute, but hey..what are you going to do!
• I have to have background sound going on. When I edit pictures, or doing cleaning, or whatever. I have to have the t.v. on, or my mp3 player on, or SOMETHING. The only time that I want it completely quiet is when I want to go to sleep. Then, any sound keeps me awake.
• I am a social bug. I love being out and with people. I know that I don't talk a whole lot, and it is something that I am trying to overcome, and because of this, people get odd first impressions of me. But I love being out and just being with people that like being with me. I hope that people actually enjoy hanging out with me, but even if they don't, I still enjoy it!

Ok, I think I will end there for tonight. Enjoy!

Confessions..

(Insert something witty here)...here we go.

• I have a pain in my side. It isn't really in my side, it's more on my left hand side just under my ribs. It comes and goes occasionally, and works it's way through my insides into my back. It hurts. It currently hurts, and makes it hard to focus on anything else.
• I've spent more then a week being with Bubba 24 hours a day. As much as I love him, I need to get out. And not just leave the house, but OUT. Away from Bubba, away from Sam, and away from my family. As much as I love all of them very much, I need to refill me...
• Sam is now gone longer for work. He leaves a day earlier, and he comes back a few hours later than he used to. Where I used to have him for 3 1/2 days, I only get him for 2. I know I can't complain, other people don't have their husbands for a lot longer. But I can't stand it. I wish that he could come home each night and be with me, and talk to me. But he can't. And it drives me nuts. It makes me resent his work. Which I know he is doing everything he can to support us. But I really don't like them for taking him away from us for so long. Boo.
• There are 3 things that would KILL me in life. They are as follows: 1. Losing Sam or Bubba. Those would make me want to die right there. 2. Losing anyone in my family. They are a HUGE part of my life. 3. Never being able to take pictures again. It's my passion, and besides my family, it is one of the only things that can make me happy.
• I love thunderstorms. I am listening to thunder outside our house right now, and it is taking EVERYTHING in me to not go out onto the roof and watch the show. I love it, it's peaceful to me.
• Sometimes I wish I were a little kid so I could throw a tantrum and get away with it. I say this as I sit and listen to Bubba throw one. To not have to come up with the words to describe how I feel, but to just cry and throw a fit. I realize that in doing so, I would look like a dork, but part of me wouldn't care. I think it would relieve a lot of stress.

I think I will end there. (Enter another witty comment of your choosing) and good night.

Randomness...

YAY!! We got pictures up!! Ok, so this is going to be one freakin long post. But here it finally goes!! A few weeks ago, I went driving up Farmington Canyon and up to Bountiful Peak with my dad, sister and brother. It was a lot of fun, and it was awesome to get out and do something. We did the little hike all the way up Bountiful Peak, which I don't think I have ever done before. We then finished driving Skyline Dr to find...the gate locked on the other end! AHH! So we had to drive ALL the way back across it to come out Farmington. There were a couple of scary parts where the dirt road was very muddy, and I thought for sure that we were going to slide down the mountain. Of course we didn't, but I was worried! I should have had more faith in my dad's jeeping skills. Haha. We of course took pictures, so here are some of them...

This is the VERY TOP of Bountiful Peak. That chair thing has been struck by lightning SO many times!

This is the VIEW from Bountiful Peak. I love it. And I love living in that valley.

Kaleigh and I posing

Me...ooohhhh yeeeeah.

Dad and the girls at the top of Bountiful Peak

Curtis. Yes ladies...he's ALLLL yours. lol

This is one of the scary parts we had to drive through. We were told that we wouldn't make it through. TAKE THAT! We made it through...not only 2 places like this, but 4 times!! Yee haw.

This is Kaleigh...need I say more?

We have also discovered something that makes shopping TONS easier!! Bubba is usually trying to get into the carts and pull everything out that we are putting in, so this is the solution. He plays in one of these...

He LOVES it! And it keeps him happy, and we are able to do all the shopping that we need to do! Yay!!! I want to find the inventor of this...and kiss them! Ok, maybe not kiss them, but I would give them a VERY BIG hug!!

We also had some family pictures taken, that I have finally gotten around to editing. So here are a couple of my favorites..

Does he NOT look like a growing up little boy! My baby isn't there anymore. :-(

He was far more interested in the rocks we were sitting on.

I love this one. I love the look on his face, like he is trying to be sneaky. LOVE it.

Anyway, that is all I have for now. Maybe I will take Bubba out and try to do a photoshoot of him again, I haven't tried that for a while. It might be due to the fact that he RUNS from me when I pull out my camera now! Silly boy! Well enjoy anyway!

16 Months Old

Ok, so I thought of something else I could blog about...Bubba. What else? Haha. Today, Bubba turns 16 months old. I still can't believe that I no longer have a baby, but I have a toddler. I full fledged toddler. Oh my goodness does he keep me on my toes! Alright..here is what Bubba is up to lately:

• He loves water. He loves to drink it, and he loves to play in it. Seriously, he will take off towards ANY kind of water in the hopes to play in it. And he is constantly drinking a lot of water.
• He can say "Dad", "Ball", "ya", "truck" (sound like tck), "milk", "dog", "uh oh", "mama" "hello" and a few other words that are still hard to distinguish. Haha.
• When he wants something, if he can't say what it is, he will pull your hand over to what he wants, and look at you and say "eh?" Seriously SO cute, but sometimes hard when he pulls you all the way across a room for something!
• He loves animals. He is learning is animal noises. He knows what a dog, cat, bird, and cow say. (Don't ask about the cow..that was actually the first one that he knew!)
• He like to eat. His favorites are hot dogs, macaroni and cheese, yogurt, cheese, ANY kind of meat, especially sausage, corn off of the cob, most fruits and vegetables, potatoes and kidney beans. He also likes cookies, and smarties.
• He has 1 nap a day, that usually lasts about 2 hours. He also sleeps about 10 to 12 hours at night.
• He is throwing fits. Not just the little whining fits, but the ones where he starts screaming, throwing his body back, hitting, all out fits. These make me feel like I don't know what I'm doing! I try to ignore his fits, and just be there for comfort. But he can usually get his way with others. ;-)
• At his 15 month appointment, he is all caught up on immunizations, he was in the 90th percentile for his weight, and 80th percentile for his height. So he is still a big kid! He was 27 pounds, and 32 inches long. I can't believe he is growing so much.
• I LOVES kisses! He loves to give them, and especially to blow them. If he sees a car drive by, he will blow it a kiss. When people leave the house, he will blow kisses. When he goes down for a nap, or bedtime, he has to go around to everyone and give them kisses.
• He knows how to wave, color, and he uses sign language for "more", "please", and "thank you". When he wants something, he will walk up to you and sign "please" with a smile on his face. Makes me melt.
• He's been walking since he was 10 months old, he now tries to run, kick a ball, and attempts somersaults.
• Still remains the light of my life, and I love him more every day!

I hope to have pictures up shortly! Hopefully I can get it to agree with me!

Happenings as of late..

Well...I would post pictures showing our happenings of late, but it isn't letting me load pictures...again. It does this every once and a while, just won't let me upload pictures to ANYTHING, and it drives me up a wall. Hopefully tomorrow I can post pictures. Ugh.

7 Years

I honestly can NOT believe that Sam and I have been married for 7 years. It does NOT seem like it has been that long! Although, sometimes I think that it hasn't been that long, and other times it feels like it has been A LOT longer!! Haha.

I can't believe that I have been married to Sam for more than a quarter of my life. Does that sound scary to you? It kind of does to me..

But then, I listen to his voice, or I look in his face, and I can't explain how much I love him. He completes me. He has been there for me through thick and thin. When I need someone to just sit and hold me, he will do it.
We have been through a LOT over the last 7 years. Struggling with infertility, miscarriages, treatments, adoption, and just trying to keep ourselves a float. I faltered SO many times, and wondered what the point of everything was. Sam was always there picking me back up, and holding on to me. I look back on it, and I wouldn't want to go through it with anyone else. He is my one, my all, my everything.

We were married at 1:00 in the Mount Timpanogos Temple. We had a breakfast before that at Sam's uncles house. Our reception was then held at my Grandma Carter's house in her backyard. I loved it. I would put pictures up of our wedding, but they are on film...and they are in storage..so that will have to wait.

As every year goes by, I realize that I love Sam more and more. He is my rock when I feel like being washed away. I'm not going to lie and say that we have had a perfect marriage, because we haven't. We've fought, we've struggled, he's slept on the couch, and I've given the silent treatment. We aren't perfect. But we are striving for it.

Sam, I love you SO much. I can't believe that I have you for Eternity, and I can't wait. You may not be perfect, but you are perfect for me. Thank you for being there for me. LOVE YOU!

JaG Game

Ok, so this is weird as I am a photographer, but I wanted to give it a try. I have always been looking at trying to do workshops to further my skills as a photographer, but have never been able to do them. Which is unfortunate, because I think they would really be fun to go to! I have been trying to do a lot to build my business, so that it is something I can rely on and help us through. ANYWAY...One of the photographers I follow started a game. It's called "Jarvie's Awesome Game" Hence the name JaG. Well, for the winners, they will get a free photo workshop with Jarvie Digital Photography. Which would be A.W.E.S.O.M.E. So here are their links. Go check out there work, and see why I follow them!

http://jarviedigital.com http://jarviestudios.com/blog

And a big thank you to Scott Jarvie for thinking of this awesomest idea!

Another week gone by..

Here we go:

• I felt like my life stopped this week. My nephew was hit by a car and thrown 30 feet and spent a couple of nights at Primary Children's Hospital. When I heard the news, my stomach fell. I felt sick, worry, and pain. I ached to see him, to hold him, to be there for him. Tagan and I are very close. Have been since he was born. He is the 3rd boy of my life after Sam, and Bubba. I wanted to run to the hospital to see him. Sam wouldn't let me. Which is smart, because there were so many other people there. I was able to see him the next morning, and I just wanted to hold him. But it made me think about a lot of things in life, and made me realise that I take a lot of things for granted. I need to focus more on the little things. My heart goes out to Mell and Aaron, I don't think I would be as strong as them. But he is home now, and doing a lot better.
• I don't eat very healthy. I realize this today as my family is on vacation. My mom usually cooks dinner here. And for dinner..I had a frozen pizza. I can live off of pizza, chicken nuggets, spaghetti, and macaroni and cheese. Yum. I don't like cooking, so anything easy, is for me. Mother...it's been ONE day, and I miss your cooking. Come home now. Please. ;-)
• I LOVE the show So You Think You Can Dance. I look forward to it every week. I love watching the dances, and it makes me wish I could dance like that. I like connecting with the contestants. But I REALLY don't like the judges. I always fast forward through them (thank you DVR!). And I can't tell you how excited I am that they are going to do a fall show, so I don't have to wait until next March for it to start again! Yay!!
• My anniversary is on Monday. We will have been married for 7 years. I can't believe that it has been that long. The sad thing is, that we aren't doing anything for our anniversary! And it makes me sad. I always like celebrating days of importance, and to see one go by without being celebrated, bothers me for some reason. Ugh.
• I really want to sleep all night tonight. For the past week, Bubba has been waking up all the time, just crying. And we can't figure out why. Last night, he was up from 3 to 4, from 5 to 5:45, from 7:00 to about 8:30. We got about 2 hours of sleep. I think I am going to die.

Alright, I think I am going to end there. Enjoy!

Friday, Confession Day..

Alrighty, man...this week has flown by. So here we go!

• I REALLY don't know how I am going to survive moving out on my own with a baby. I know he isn't really a baby anymore, but still. It was me, my mom, and Bubba today. I could NOT keep up with him! And I kind of feel guilty over the relief I felt when I heard Tanielle walk through the door after she got off work. I felt so relieved that Tanielle would take over somewhat! But at the same time, I wanted his attention too. So I don't know how I am going to be a stay at home mom with Bubba all day, by myself....kind of a scary thought, so let's not dwell..
• I am a Mary Kay Consultant. Something that I thought I would NEVER, EVER say! But I officially have my starter kit, and everything to get started, and am excited to do it! This will not take place of my photography, and will hopefully enhance it, but that was one condition. Photography comes first out of my businesses, and my family comes before that.
• I ate Krispy Kreme Doughnuts today, and don't feel guilty about it at all. I adore these doughnuts. If I weren't already married, I would marry them. And when they are fresh, it's the best...mmm...they melt in your mouth, and are just SOOOO yummy. I think I might just have to go eat another one...
• My favorite thing right now, is watching Bubba say "please". He can't say it yet, but he signs it. And it is SO cute! If he wants something, all I have to do is say, "what do you say?" and he will sign "please". It's fun to watch him learn new things.
• I didn't get to say goodbye to my sister-in-law and nephew before they left to start their lives in CO. And it kind of makes me sad. But what's even worse, is that I feel that I am losing neices and nephews left and right, so I can't focus too long on it, or I will have a melt down. So I am not letting it bug me too bad. They are a HUGE part of my life, and I love each and every one of them. I worry that they don't know that, or don't believe it. And that, would be a very sad day.
• A couple of weeks ago, I did something that I didn't think I would ever do again. That was ride up to the top of Bountiful Peak...with my dad....in a jeep...with no top. And you know what? It was SO MUCH FUN! I went with Kaleigh, Curtis, and my Dad. We spent a Sunday Afternoon driving around and hiking up there. It was a LOT of fun, and I honestly can't wait to do it again. Although, next time, I hope the snow is melted, and the gates are all open. ;-)

I will end with this picture of the view from the mountain. I will try to do another post telling more about it in the next day or two. So enjoy!

Independance Day 2009

We had a BLAST for Independance Day this year! It started out on Saturday bright and early at 6:30. Which is the time I crawled out of bed. I only got a couple hours of sleep, because I was afraid that my alarm clock wouldn't go off! That and Bubba kept waking up again. Oh well, I woke up and Kaleigh, my dad, and I drove over to Davis High. Kaleigh and I were participating in the Kaysville's 5K Run. We have been training for it for weeks, and believed that we could do it! Although 2 days before the race, Kaleigh blew her knee, so we weren't sure if she was going to be able to run. We even tried convincing her NOT to run! But she said she would, so she ran. And she stayed with me! So we went over, stretched out and ran. Here is a picture of us before the race.

We were able to finish in 30 minutes and 47 seconds. I came in 112, and Kaleigh was 114 out of about 600 people. We were excited, as our goal was to be less than 34 minutes and not finish last! Here we are at the end of the race.

Then we went home to get ready for the parade. My mom and dad are leaders of the local CERT group, and were helping out, so Tanielle, Kaleigh, Curtis, Bubba and I sat on a blanket and watched the parade. Bubba loved the fire trucks, especially when the sirens would blare! He also liked the VW bugs, and the horses.

He loved laying on the tarp. He has a thing for blankets and pillows now, and it is SO cute!

Bubba had his picture taken with this clown last year. He gave the clown funny looks then, but now he won't even LOOK at the clown. His way of saying "I don't want anything to do with you!"

Here I tried to take a picture of the two of us. I think he was trying to shove some candy in his mouth while he had the chance. Haha

Here he is on my shoulders, with candy in each hand. Once he figured out that candy came from the vehicles driving by, he would watch all of them and point to his candy. :-)

This is what Bubba knows how to do. He LOVES phones. And knows how to use them! Haha

And this is how he would watch the parade. Slouched down in the folding chair. He sat here for a good portion of it, sucking on his squirt bottle.

After the parade, we went home and took a NAP! Sam was able to come home after work so that he could go to the fireworks with us! Yay!! We had a BBQ with Jackie and Brandon, and then headed over to the fireworks. They were fun and gorgeous! Bubba didn't get scared like we thought he would. He just layed and watched them with us. He would point and "oo" and "ahh", and then clap during them. He also made sure he snuggled everyone there. He would lay with us, then go to Tanielle, then back to Jackie, and Kaleigh, and Curtis. So he made sure he got everyone in.

We thoroughly enjoyed our Independance Day, and are very thankful to my brother Chris for serving in the Army, so we can enjoy the freedom that we do. Thank you Chris!! We love you!

What, oh what to confess...

Dun dun dun...

• I hosted a Mary Kay party last week, and fell in love with their stuff. Oh my goodness. My good friend Tana is my consultant, and after much deliberation, I am going to become a consultant. I am way excited!
• I am running a 5k in just under 8 hours, and I really don't feel ready for it. I feel nervous. I have run the route before, and have run the whole time, but I am fearful of actually doing it. I can't wait until it is over, and I can enjoy the rest of the day!
• I really, really, really want to get away for a bit. A couple of days at least, and I want to be out of the state of Utah. Away from everyone and everything. And I don't want to plan anything. I just want to go.
• I have been doing a lot of "searching" I guess, and have started to find what I like in myself. It's been refreshing in a way to see that some of the things that I thought were SO important, really aren't. And I am becoming ok with that. I am lucky enough to have a wonderful husband to be there for me.

That's all I can really think of at this time. So I am headed to bed. Good night and have a wonderful 4th of July!