Monday, March 22, 2010

2 years ago today

Can you believe it's been two years?

I am sitting here readying through blog entries from 2 years ago. Two years ago, I was anxiously trying to FORCE myself to sleep. I was too excited, too nervous, to anxious to sleep.

We had spent all of Saturday driving. We drove from Logan to Portland. needless to say, that drive didn't go fast enough. :-) we got up there, and we got all situated in Michael and Mandy's house (they were out of town for the week, and graciously offered us their house) And awaited the next day. We made all our final arrangements with Crystal, we were to meet at the hospital at 7:30 the next morning.

I really don't think I slept.

The next day was a blur. I remember some things about it SO clearly. Watching Crystal as they started the c-section. Watching her smile at me. Watching them hold Bubba up, they let me go over to see him. Seeing his face. I will never forget that. They bundled him up, and I carried him back over to Crystal. Seeing her interaction with him those first few moments. Priceless. I don't think I will ever forget that. But other things just kind of blurred together.

We still thank Crystal every single day for that day, and everything she has done since. She is truly amazing. We thank her from the bottom of our hearts. Our family with her started 2 years ago. And we are SO lucky to call her family.

He still makes this face :-)

I am kind of torn to see Bubba turn 2. I love that he is growing up and learning new things, and I LOVE watching it! But I want him to stay little forever. You see, I don't know when we are going to decide to add to our family. We want to add, like yesterday. But that's not really going to happen. So where we aren't sure, we want to hold on to EVERY single moment of his childhood. He's growing up too fast. But I still can't believe that he is mine to snuggle, and love. I love him with everything I have possible. He is my sweet little boy, and I can't believe he's two.

Happy Birthday sweet baby.

Friday, March 12, 2010


This last week, I was able to attend what is called WPPI (Wedding and Portrait Photogerphy International)


to simply put it, it was amazing to me

I met SO many wonderful people, enjoyed company of those that I already knew, and became So inspired!
I got to rub shoulders with some of the best of the best photographers out there

I learned a lot and I will be trying to implement that information into my business, and my life in general

tomorrow, I will hopefully be uploading pictures so I can create a time line of what happened

But thank you to EVERYONE that made my trip the trip it was. It was SO very worth it

Wednesday, March 3, 2010



heart·ache \härt-āk\
Function: noun

anguish of mind : sorrow

have you ever wanted something SO bad
that is literally HURTS to not have it?

do you ever look at things, and
just to wish that something would happen?
thinking that if you look hard enough, or long enough,
that it will

or you pray that just maybe your faith was good enough this time

and time and time again, it doesn't

so you cry
you have your time
and you try again

only to have it fail over, and over
and over again

but you put a smile on your face
pretend it doesn't bother you
and move on with your life

only to be faced with the same thing again

and no matter how many times you tell yourself
"this time, I won't let it affect me"
it still does

Yeah, I have those days too.