Friday Night Confessions..

Let's see what we have tonight:

• I sometimes have a hard time being a mom. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Bubba to death, and wouldn't trade him for anything in the world. But sometimes being a mom is just hard. Especially now that he is on the downhill slide to turning 2. There is the screaming, the fits, and the defiance as he tries to find his own independance. It's hard. Some days I go to bed just about in tears cause I don't know how I can face another day of doing it. I fought so hard for this, it's supposed to be easy right? :-) Haha. But then I snuggle up to him, or look at him, or feel his arms as he wraps them around me to give me a hug, and it somehow seems to make it all worth it.
  
• I am not commonly on the other side of the camera that often. But we are getting family pictures done in a few weeks, and I am starting to see why some people go insane! Trying to find outfits for us, and make sure everything is ready. Luckily I know the photographer will do an awesome job, so I'm not completely insane. ;-)
• Yellow is my favorite color. I don't think I have mentioned this. But I love yellow. Orange is a close second though.
  
• I like frozen custard more than I like ice cream. I don't eat much Ice Cream as it is, but I could easily eat frozen custard every day if I could. And Nelson's Frozen Custard in Bountiful? We are lucky we don't live very close to it. ;-)
  
• I hate cold sores. I don't get them too often, but when I do, I am MISERABLE. Because I usually won't get just one, no I get 5 or 6. Which is exactly what I have now. About 6 cold sores on my lips. NO idea where I get them, Sam never gets them. But I HATE them! When I was younger, I had some illness where my entire mouth was covered with cold sores. Inside and out. I couldn't eat, I couldn't talk, I couldn't do anything. I could barely suck stuff through a straw. And as they healed, if I bumped them on ANYTHING, they would start bleeding all over the place. Maybe that is where my hatred for cold sores starts. Either that, or they are just plain awful to begin with. Either way.
  

Ok, I think I am going to end there for the night. Thanks for reading! Enjoy.

Growing Up...

Here are a couple of pictures that I was able to load somewhere else, and then load them to here. I can't believe how fast my little man is growing up. It seems like just yesterday we were there watching him come into the world. And now look at him.
Not so much a baby anymore.
He's a little boy.
A toddler.

He turns 18 months this week. I can't believe it. I want to rewind a year and a half and live it over again. I thought that I did a pretty good job of snuggling him, and making sure that I cherished every moment with him.
But now it doesn't seem like enough.
I need to do it more.

This little guy went to Nursery today. I was able to sit through Relief Society, and Sunday School without being interrupted.
Without needing to go out and wander the halls to calm a tired baby.
No, someone ELSE had to deal with it.
I admit I went and watched him through the window. And he looked perfectly fine. He didn't need me during that time. He had friends, other adults.
And he didn't need me. It was bittersweet.



I love this guy SOOO much. I still can't believe he's mine. I can't believe that I get to raise him, that I get to snuggle him, take care of him, and love him.
He seems too perfect for me.
I don't deserve to be blessed with such a miracle. But yet, I cherish every day I have with him.
He's my baby.
Like the book says:
"I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always;
As long as I'm living,
my baby you'll be"

Friday Night Confessions

Yeah..thought I stopped didn't ya! A couple of weeks ago, I did a girls night out with my aunts and siblings, and mom. So I didn't get them done then. Then last week I was on vacation and was pretty much AWAY from my computer for 8 days. It was nice. So here we go:

• I was on vacation. I LOVE vacations. Even short little ones. They are fun for me, and they are a chance to get away from day to day life. I did something that I thought I wouldn't be able to do, which was put away my computer and my phone for a few days, and not do anything with them except take pictures, load pictures, and touch base so people knew where we were. Which is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I can see how much I don't need all these things in my life. So I am going to slowly start to pull away from them, and LIVE life. Hopefully I can. ;-)
  
• I had fun acting silly with Sam and Bubba. We had 2 LONG days of driving. And I found we would do just about anything to entertain a 1.5 year old! Even if it was doing "Hi, my name is Joe, I work in a button factory" over and over and over again. But it made Bubba laugh, it made Sam laugh, and it made other drivers look at us and speed up to get away. :P
• I love Oregon and the Beach. I want to live there.
  
• I also watched many bugs die on our windshield. Poor bugs. But what the heck are they flying into the windshield for!
  
• Bubba turns 18 months next week. What does this mean? NURSERY!! I can't tell you how excited I am to even THINK about sitting through a Relief Society or Sunday School lesson. And hey, I might actually learn something from it.
  
• There are so many things that I want to do, but I have no motivation to do it. I am currently trying to get my act together to train to run a marathon next year. Can I do it? I hope so! It is all in the name of adoption, and what better way to be able to overcome something that will be hard for me. I just need to find a way to run on a treadmill during the winter. Haha.
  
• We got to spend a few days with Crystal this last week, and can I just say that I love her to death? She is seriously an amazing woman. I loved watching how she would interact with Bubba, and how he would interact with her. I feel so blessed to be able to have her as part of our lives. And we have met so many wonderful people who have accepted us into their lives. We feel like we have a whole other family with them. It's amazing. But we love Crystal to death, and hope our relationship continues to grow. Now to get more pictures to her. ;-)
  
• I am such a slacker. I admit it. I try to take the easy way out on too many things. I really need to work on this.
  

Ok, I think that is enough for tonight. Thanks for reading!

Home Now

We are home from vacation. SO sad to leave, but we knew it had to end sometime!
Sam is back at work,
Bubba is down for his nap,
and I can now catch up on everything!
Whew! But in the meantime,
THIS:

Will be very much missed.

VaCaTiOn

I am on a MUCH needed vacation. We are in Oregon for over a week. YAY! Time for some sand, sun, and FUN. I wanted to let you know that I will NOT be responding to e-mails until I return home. Time to enjoy my husband, my baby, and just being us for a little bit. So I will see you in a while!
I am going to enjoy this little face for a while. :-)