bear lake

sometimes, you just need to get away.

even if it's just for a day

a couple of weeks ago, we planned a trip to bear lake with some friends. we ended up with the choice of not going, or going alone. we decided that we needed a day away, so we went alone (well...after my sister begged to come along :))

so here are some images taken of just us.

enjoying a day away.

the last couple of images are from my FAVORITE place to eat. firehouse pizza. i was sad when they got rid of the one in centerville. now i can only enjoy it when i go up to cache valley. 

and yes, i am married to that man. 

he makes me smile. :)

i have to confess

~our adoption is at a standstill right now. just thought i'd let you know. we can't seem to get insurance from anywhere, and it's just beyond frustrating. but i am sure it is happening for a reason. 

i just don't know it. 

but i am surprised at how different this adoption process is from the last one. seriously. like night and day. with bubba, it was 3 months from when we started the paperwork, to when he was in our arms. of course, that was considered a designated adoption, so there were a lot of things we didn't have to do. with this one, we have been working on the paperwork part since march. 

dang. 

~where adoption has been the forefront of my mind, of course it seems like EVERYONE is expecting now. that or just delivered. within 2 weeks, i was told by 6 different people that they were expecting. and 4 others delivered. with a few more delivering here shortly. 

i can't help but wonder when it will be our turn.

or wonder what water they're drinking.

~yeah..that pretty much consumes my life right now. sad. 

~bubba is starting a joy school in the next few weeks. he's excited for it. he loves playing with other kids. and i think it will be good for him, and kind of prepare him for preschool next year. 

~my apartment is a disaster. seriously. looks like a tornado came through it. and i don't have time to clean it right now. i try to do the basic cleaning, but i haven't been able to deep clean it. after this season, it should calm down enough for me to clean it...right? 

let's hope so. 

~i am ecstatic for my photoshoots this fall. i have some amazing ones lined up, and i can't WAIT to do them! just you wait until you see them. :) 

~ok..enough for now. hope you all enjoy your weekend. :)

busy, busy

it has been crazy busy lately, and it is just going to get busier. 

but so far this summer, we are lucky to have been able to go the zoo, multiple parks, st. george, lagoon multiple times, fishing, gateway a few times, park city, logan a couple of times, and just been around.

so i apologize for not writing in this as often. 

and i apologize in advance that i might not be updating that often. 

but hopefully we can get into a routine. 

let's see what's going on with us. 

i just turned 28 yesterday. 

what? 28?

yeah. i can't believe it either. 

i swear i'm still 18. 

oh well. 

i ended up being sick for it, and so sam took care of me. he surprised me with a party at my parents house, where him and tanielle cooked me dinner. it was very delicious. (what i could taste. my senses are off with being sick, so i couldn't really taste anything.) and then sam surprised me with a wii. 

that's right. 

a wii, and bubba has been playing mario kart as often as he could today. 

silly boy. 

but i have to admit, he's getting better, and soon will be able to kick my trash at it. 

i guess we should invest in some kind of educational games as well.. 

we ended the day by chasing a lightning storm. oh yeah. 

bubba is learning and growing every day. he is talking more, and i can't understand him pretty well. he is the tallest boy in nursery, and loves playing with other kids. he will be starting a joy school this fall, which we are both excited about. it guarantees that he will get out and play with other kids at least once a week. he is very much looking forward to it. he knows all of his letters, but associates them with a word, and not the letter, so "h" is "hot", or "w" is "what's happening dude" (thank you letter factory)

he is trying to count, so we are focusing on that right now. 

he has shown a greater interest for reading, so we are reading a lot more books, and his favorite is "Green Eggs And Ham" and you can find him repeating it all.the.time. 

he loves fruits and meats, but isn't that picky of an eater, and he will try anything once. 

sam is still working in a contract position that we hope becomes permanent. but if it doesn't, it has at least got him experience in his field. he does a really good job at taking care of us when he's home, and supporting us. 

this last weekend, sam and i attended a national adoption conference here in layton. it was great, and very educational. it was our first time attending it, and we were able to make so many great friends, that have been through the same thing as us, so we instantly connected! it was great. and they had this banquet dinner, where i got to eat filet mignon. holy.snot. DELISH. 

oh, you didn't know? 

yes, we are trying to adopt again. we are in the final stages of our paperwork, and hope that our profile will go live here shortly! we are just waiting to hear back from a couple of things for our homestudy to be final. 

they say to start spreading the word that you are looking at adopting, because you just never know. 

and i can't argue, because that is how bubba came to be in our family! 

so, if you hear anything, or feel the need to pass our name along..

we would be more than thrilled. :) 

bubba took this of us. :)

photography is going great, fall is always my busy time, and this fall doesn't seem like it's going to be an exception. :) which i am more than thrilled for! i love all of my clients/friends, and am so blessed to be doing what i love! 

anyway, i hope this is an ok update, and i will try to update more!

love

love this little man

more than just about anything in this world. 

so lucky he's with me :)

friday confessions

i have been away from the blog for a while, because i tried to upload for a couple of days and it was.not.having.it. 

so i gave up for a bit. 

i decided that it was probably time that i tried again. 

i'm starting to get those messages from my mother, telling me i need to update my blog :)

~nothing like having your child get a black eye, to make you feel like a horrible mother. especially since it happened at night, in his sleep. i should have been able to prevent that some how, right? ah well. makes him look like a tough boy. 

~summer is going by way to fast. it is almost august, and i am not ready for september yet. well, technically, nothing will really change for us..but it's one month closer to winter. 

which i don't like. 

~i went to my high school 10 year reunion a couple of weeks ago. 

i don't like to admit that i graduated 10 years ago. it makes me feel old. 

i swore i'd never grow up. 

while it was good to see people i haven't seen in 10 years, and see how they are doing. i didn't really care for it. those that i want to stay in touch with, i do. either by blog stalking/facebook stalking/chatting/get together/ or emails. 

i don't know. maybe it's just cause i'm getting old :/ 

~i have started to go back to being a hermit. i would much rather stay in my house, in pajamas all day, then do anything outdoors. maybe it's because i don't really have a mode of transportation..but it just seems like too much work to get bubba and myself ready and walk places. 

maybe i'm just lazy. 

although it's a lot easier to be able to go out and do it with someone else. 

i need more friends. 

~sam and i have been married for 9 years now. 

i can't believe it. 

we are still very much in love with each other, even though i probably annoy the snot out of him a lot of times. 

like really bad. 

as in bite his head off sometimes bad. 

but he still loves me, and he's doing his best to take care of us. 

what more can i ask for? 

that's all i can think of right now. let's see if i can find some pictures to put up here...

bubba loves swimming. we went to st. george so i could photograph a wedding, and he spent every second he could in the pool. :)

love this sleeping boy

he WAS in time out...

friday, shmiday

let's see what we have today

~we went to lagoon twice this week, and it makes me feel like a kid again. love the rides, the swimming, and the just being with family. chris and tab, you would be SO proud of me, the last two times i've gone, my phone has stayed away. :) 

~i need to take more time for my family. i LOVE my business, but i need to find balance. this is something that i will be working on for the next couple of weeks, to see what i can do to bring balance back to my family (this includes making dinner more often i guess. but bubba is SO please with mac and cheese and chicken nuggets!)

~i ate a bowl full of spinach grown in our pots outside our front door. and we are starting to get green beans, and i am really very excited for them! 

~sam has about a month and a half before we find out if his job is permanent. he goes back and forth each day thinking that it's for sure, to thinking that he should start looking. i just wish that they would give them SOME notice, so we aren't suddenly without a job. :/ i really dislike the not knowing of it.

~i wish i were a writer. or someone who could eloquently put words together to bring true emotion into something that someone is reading. but alas. i really suck at writing. haha. i was once told by my third grade teacher i believe, that i needed to read the dictionary, because my vocabulary was awful. i'm beginning to think that she was right. oh, and if she were to read my blog, she would cringe, and tell me i need to work on capitalization. hmm. oh well. 

~some of my best ideas come while i'm showering. 

hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!

update

my mom was giving me a hard time today about not updating my blog. 

yeah..i don't know why, maybe it's because i don't feel like i have anything interesting to share. 

i have the tab open across the top of my browser, i just don't ever think to click on it and update. 

ah well. 

confessions, shall we? 

~i'm getting older. i slept on a floor last night, and i couldn't move this morning. my shoulders and hips hurt so bad. 

i don't like this fact.

~i am working on being happier with myself, and not worry so much about everyone else. 

i'll let you know how it goes.

~we need more movies. i think i have worn out the ones that we have

~i am a photographer, and i only have a couple of pictures hanging up on my walls. sad i know. i think it's because i know i'm not going to be in this place long, so i don't want to get completely settled in and do stuff, unless i know i'm going to be there a while. so sad. 

~i want to go on a vacation with sam. just him and i for a couple of days. we haven't done that for 3 years. we have only been away from bubba 3 nights. and they were all separate, and we were only away for about 12 hours. i want an actual vacation away from everything. for at least 2 days. it would do wonders i think. 

all right, i want to go to bed. enjoy your night.