a few weeks ago, i took a week off of facebook.
shocking, i know.
it was quite liberating. i was able to get more done around my house, spend more time with bubba, and focus more on my little family.
WHY can i not remember that?
this is a conversation that i had with sam last night:
sam: you sure spend a lot of time on your phone. you should spend more time with us. sitting by me, but being on your phone, isn't really spending time with me.
me: yeah i know. i'm sorry.
sam: what are you even doing on it?
me: i don't know. facebook, instagram, pinterest, the news, email, words with friends, and if i'm not doing those, i'm playing some kind of game on it.
sam: why don't you just put it down?
me: i can't
sam: why?
me: because if i put my phone down, then my mind starts working, and then i get anxious, and panicky. when i'm doing stuff on my phone, i don't have to think about what I have to do, so it calms me.
(proof, i was in the shower during this discussion, and my phone wasn't 3 feet away from me, and i felt like i had to get out and check things)
sam:.....
me: (sighing heavily.) i just need to get organized and actually do things on my list so i don't have to do that anymore huh.
sam: yeah, probably.
i get anxious when i think.
i over-analyze e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. that comes into my mind.
i always worry about what everyone else is doing, and thinking, and talking about.
and i'm never satisfied with what's going on RIGHT now.
i have a million projects going at any given time, and will always give myself more.
i need to stop.
and i will confess...while writing this post, i have gone back and forth to 3 different web pages because i can't focus on one thing long enough.
and like most of my posts, i don't remember where i was going with this. haha.
anyone have any ideas on things that can calm my mind and help me focus? i could accomplish SO much more if i could just focus.
please.
pretty please.
anyway.
that's a look into my mind.
hope you enjoyed the trip. :)
and i hope you enjoyed some photos of a little boy who keeps me sane. :)
2 comments:
This is exactly why I don't have a fancy phone. I KNOW how I am and that I would have a hard time putting it down. It also helps that I don't know a lot of people over here so even with my cheap pay-as-you-go phone, I don't really text to anyone. Good luck figuring out how to focus. Maybe throw out the phone!? lol Ok, I doubt you'll do that. My issue is the Internet at home. Luckily we only have a desktop, which doubles as our "TV" of sorts, but I still find myself checking FB all throughout the day. Dang technology - convenient for us, but also not!
Cute pics of H by the way :)
I am the same way with my phone
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