Friday Confessions

i have to apologize for missing this last week. 

turns out i was in and out of doctor offices, and an emergency room. 

all while enduring massive amounts of pain. 

which leads me to my confessions- 

~i really dislike surgery. i have had a couple of minor surgical procedures (lasting less than an hour from start to being able to go home) with wisdom teeth and ivf. so this was the first time i had a major surgical procedure. 

and i don't like it. 

(for those that don't know, i will be making an entirely different post on WHY i had to have surgery at another time with pictures included. :)) 

~i am so over this snow. why does it have to keep snowing? mother nature needs to make up her stinkin mind.

~i made cookies yesterday. and i was up moving around more, and i took care of bubba all day by myself. 

not the smartest choices. 

i'm paying for it today. 

i guess i feel that since i feel better, i can do more. apparently that's not the case. boo hiss. 

~sam surprised me and got me an iphone almost 2 weeks ago. i am ecstatic. i {heart} it tons!!

~sometimes i get tired trying to keep up with everyone all the time. and times like that i think i want to close my facebook, twitter, blogs, and just live. 

~i feel bad not being able to do a lot of things with bubba right now. he's been acting out more this week, and i think it's because things went kind of crazy for a couple of days, and he hasn't had him mom to do everything i used to do. he wanted to go to sleep the other night, so i asked him if he wanted to go to bed. he said "no" and then "i seep ight dere" and pointed to my stomach. my heart broke. he has had to stay away from me for most of the time, and it sucks. 

i have made a commitment while i've been down, to do more meaningful things with bubba once i am up and moving again. even if it's just taking a walk around the neighborhood. he needs me, and i need him. 

 i think that's good for now. enjoy while i go lay back down.