haircuts and bumps

as you could probably tell in the last photo i put up of bubba, he needed a haircut

bad

but like a good mother, i refused to cut his hair. 

why, you ask? 

because it was long enough that i could run my fingers through it

i didn't really have to do it, because well..it would do whatever it wanted to anyway, and it still looked cute (at least to me :)) 

but i have a persistent husband.

who said we NEEDED to cut bubba's hair. 

fine. i gave in. 

and i think i cried. as long pieces of hair fell from his head, and then as bubba saw them and tried to put them back on his head. he wiggled. a lot. 

sam cut it, and although it looks ok, you could tell there was a little difficulty. and this is why i like to go somewhere to have it done. 

it is shorter than i would like, by a long shot, but oh well. 

hair grows back, right? 

and yesterday, while he was playing around at my parents house, he got a little too rambunctious, and fell into a corner of a wall. 

luckily it didn't split his head open, but i think if he had hit it any harder it would have. 

he now has a line of a bruise running down his forehead. luckily the bump is mostly gone, and he doesn't act like it is bothering him. 

so he wanted more pictures done today. how can i turn him down? here are a couple... 

see....still cute. :)

Lazy Autumn Days..

yes, i changed it.

i believe it usually goes lazy summer days..but oh well

it's my blog and i can put what i want. 

this is what is on our agenda today

~watch movies

~update my blog (check!) 

~laundry (because bubba is on his last pair of underwear, and we have to be safe..)

~edit some photos

~burn more cd's for clients 

~watch more movies

~eat soup

~eat oreos

~stay in pajamas (or like bubba, just underwear, but unfortunately i'm not THAT carefree..)

~dishes, but they might wait

~and if i get to it, i might decided to finally make those curtains that have been waiting...

sounds like a busy day huh. i'm not sure if i'm going to be able to get it all done :) 

i guess only time will tell.

oh, and want to hear something exciting? i just won a $100 gift card to an online design shop. i am SO excited that i had to share it with you

just had to. 

let's see, i need to post some about adoption as well...

oh!! 

you need to go to THIS website and vote for your favorite adoption month button. :) 

alrighty peeps, i'm off to go crank out my to-do list :) 

enjoy your wednesday!

...hmmmm...

i am at a loss as to what to write.. 

let's see

sam has finished training at his work, and is now out on the floor, or whatever he does 

bubba is growing up way to fast, as proof of this picture..(which by the way i absolutely LOVE)

and our adoption process is on hold.

yet again

*sigh*

i'm so tired of depending on other people for things to go through

i am tried of being taken advantage of

and i'm tired of being led on, only to be dropped again.

hopefully we can continue our adoption paperwork as soon as possible. but we just don't know right now.

what doesn't kill us will make us stronger right?

let's hope so, 

because i feel pretty weak right now

Adoption Walk

for national adoption month, there is going to be an adoption walk! where you can go and walk with others that have had adoption bless their lives. 

we are hoping to be there. if any of you know us, we are not morning people (yes, i have made sam succumb to my sleeping in ways :)) so to get up and ready and into salt lake by 9:30 might be kind of tough, but we are going to try!  

 

the adoption walk is happening THIS saturday at 9:30 am at liberty park in salt lake city.

they are going to be having a bunch of things going on, such as food, prizes, balloons and lots of fun! so make sure you come and walk in celebration of someone you know and love who has been touched by adoption. 

the theme every year is 'orange you glad for adoption'...and prizes will be given for those that are wearing the most orange. so make sure that you take part in the fun and dress accordingly :)

come join in the fun, and try to pass the word along!! 

it will be fun :)

National Adoption Month

i attempted to do this last year. 

i didn't do so well. 

so we are going to try and do it this year. 

my goal was to do a post EVERY day about adoption.
SOME form of adoption (even it was just to post a picture of bubba :-))

yeah...not so much

and i would try to do the same thing this year, but let's face it. 

i know i can't do it. haha.

you've got to know your limits right?

SO

let's come up with a new plan, shall we? my goal is to post on this blog 10 times this month about adoption. 

i should be able to accomplish this right? 

right. 

or at least, that's what i will tell myself. :) 

so, let me know, what does adoption mean to you? what questions do you have about adoption? i feel like i am pretty open about our adoption, and am willing to answer pretty much everything out there. so, feel free to ask away :) 

i will start by telling you what adoption means to me: 

AdOpTiOn: 

means that i don't have to sit alone at home while my hubby works. 

it means that i have a full time job working 24/7. (i would like to see that overtime please :)) 

means that when a little boy gets an owie, i'm the one he runs to to make it better 

it means that i get to make those better, and make him smile. 

it means that my heart melts multiple times a day because of a "tank you mommy", or a "luuuv you mommy"

its means waking up at night (sometimes multiple times) to check on a little boy when he's sick. 

adoption means i have an even larger family than most, we gained a lot of sisters, aunts, uncles, etc. 

it means that disney movies are our movies of choice. 

it means e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.

it means that someone, somewhere saw me fit to be a mother, and gave me the absolute best gift in the world. 

it means i'm a mother. 

and i wouldn't change it for anything. 

p.s. now it's your turn: what does it mean to you? what questions do you have? feel free to email any questions to winsorphoto@gmail.com if you want to ask anonymously. :) help me advocate adoption :)

Family

fam·i·ly
[fam-uh-lee, fam-lee] noun

1. a basic social unit consisting of parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not

2. any group of persons closely related by blood, as parents, children, uncles, aunts, and cousins

what does family mean to you?

have you ever felt "left out" from your family? i mean, understandably it happens sometimes. 

say everyone goes to see a movie, and no one thinks to call and invite you. 

or they plan get togethers (i.e. birthday parties, summer picnics, holidays, etc) without ever mentioning it to you.

understandable that it just happens sometime, right? 

but what if it happens more often than not? 

and no one cares? 

so, i bring you back to my original question. 

what does FAMILY mean to you? 

now, let me verify by saying that my direct family is amazing. :) i have sisters that will call me when they are having a bad day, and brothers who will text me randomly just to tell me that they love me. they call and invite me to go shopping with them, because i might be bored. 

see, what did i say. 

amazing. 

but i have to admit that the SECOND part of this definition is where i struggle. 

you know, the part of aunts, cousins, grandparents, etc. 

that e.x.t.e.n.d.e.d. family

i have one side of my family who i get along great with, but still feel excluded. (as in, "oh, so and so had a birthday, and you guys threw them a party? and we didn't know!? oh, ok"

another side of my family where i feel like i know just a few anymore.  and don't really hear from any of them.

granted, it happens as you all grow up and get older, and have your own kids and your individual families take place and just get too big. 

i get that 

i have an aunt that i could go to with anything, and wouldn't think twice about it. 

i have a sister and brother in law that i think the WORLD of

i have sisters that i would rather face death than to see any of them hurt. 

i have a mother and father who love me and care for me. 

i have a husband who loves me more than i deserve. 

i have a son who is the center of my world right now.

i know that i have not been the best building up my family relationships with my husbands family. and i want that to change. i want to be a part of their lives. i want them to be a part of ours.

so. what does family mean to you?

i think about what i want from my family 20 years down the road. 

i want to still be getting along and talking to ALL of my siblings. being able to call them at ANY time just to "chat"

i want my mom and dad to be there for everything possible. 

i want to be the best aunt to ALL of my nieces and nephews (no matter how many, and even if I don't like the spouse ;)) 

i hope i can look past any differences i have with anyone in my family, and still love them. 

no.matter.what.

i hope i can give my family the benefit of the doubt, and know that they will NEVER purposefully hurt me.

i hope that my kids, nieces, and nephews will never feel left out or less "liked" by me or any of my siblings.

i hope that my parents never side with any of us, and will treat us all the same. 

i hope that we can get together for thanksgiving meals and not be "separated" into different rooms. 

i hope that we can take a large family vacation somewhere, where no one feels left out, like they don't fit in, or that they aren't wanted there. 

cause that isn't really what a family is. 

now, i know that with families, come quarrels. 

trust.me. 

my sister and i had quite a few girl fights growing up. :) 

but i could never DREAM of hurting her intentionally, and i hope she knows that. 

or any of my siblings. 

i know there are still disagreements, and different views, and just times that we plain won't get along. 

but i hope that as a family we can look past the differences, the disagreements, and not judge each other. 

and just be a family. 

a family, is patience, acceptance, and love.

no.matter.what.

-me

I Had a Dream

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.

The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream

That I could fly from the highest tree.

I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.

I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream