still here

i'm starting to get messages asking if i dropped off the face of the earth

nope. still here. 

surviving. 

thankfully, i have this little man to keep me going. 

and boy does he keep me going. 

but we are here. 

 i have really been struggling with our infertility again. 

i hate that it comes and goes. and when i think i am over it and past it, it rears it's ugly head again. 

4 years ago at this time, we were told that our chances of having biological children were one in a million chance. slim to none, and if i did become pregnant, i will miscarry, because of all the factors playing in.

boo hiss

so i am trying to go through that stage again and get past again. digest all the information...again.

i know that i will never fully get through it. it's something that i'm going to always be struggling with. but i just need a couple of days to come to terms with it all again, and then i'll be good. :) 

something that has helped, is that we are filling out our adoption paperwork again. 

YAY!!! 

we have finished the first little bit and are in the last stages of getting our paperwork in. :) 

that in and of itself is VERY exciting. 

i can't wait to expand our family. 

the other exciting thing, is i got a new camera

yes, yes. 

and it is amazing.

the picture of bubba above is the first picture i took with it. 

then i had to try and take one of myself. 

haha, not the BEST picture, but it works. 

anyway, i hope things are going well for you.