- One year ago TODAY we met with Crystal. (For those who don't know, Crystal is Bubba's birthmother.) I remember sitting in an office, scared out of my wits, wondering if she was going to like us. And what we would do if she didn't like us, and what we would do if she did, and what if...and then we met her. She is an AMAZING woman! We sat and talked with the caseworker, and then we went out to eat lunch. This is 10 days before Bubba was born. Crazy, but WONDERFUL day.
- I love Olive Garden. I think I could eat there every day. Mainly their bread sticks, and their salad. MMmmm...lovely.
- I really don't want Bubba to turn 1. I want to keep him little for as long as possible. In fact, I have delayed planning a birthday party for him...just because I don't want to face reality.
- I have a big issue with people abandoning me. I always worry that people in my life are just going to leave me. Leave me with no explanation, no meaning, no reason. And I will be left alone. I've dealt with this, and it is HARD. Always feels like a piece of my heart has been ripped out, and I will never get it back. It hurts.
- Along with the last one, I have a fear of being alone. I always tell Sam that I HAVE to die before him, because I really don't want to be alone.
- I want flip flops in every single color. Why? I have no reason. I just do.
- I have found a new addiction. LEMON COOKIES. Seriously, best thing EVER. There is a place up here named "Cutler's" And they make these lemon cookies. My sister Tanielle would get them, and I would eat them. Well, Tanielle tried to make her own Lemon Cookies. And lo and behold...they are even BETTER than the ones Cutler's makes! I am ashamed to say that I ate 11 cookies...in one sitting. (OK, so I am not really ashamed to say it...but hey, it adds emphasis to the post)
- It is Friday night, Sam left at 11:30 this morning, and I miss him terribly. I almost don't want to go to bed, because I don't want to go to bed by myself. I wish that he was here with me every night, and didn't have to go work on weekends.
- I am being told that I have too many confessions tonight. ;-) So I will end here.
Good Night all!
6 comments:
lol, i met my Acouple on march 13th 2008 too! i remember seeing crystal that eve, she was so excited having just come from spending the afternoon with you guys! yay for happy adoption memories! CRAZY how fast one year has flown by!!
wow, the last year sure has flown by!!! I remember you guys coming and visiting, it was SO SO SO fun!!!! I am really anxious to come visit you guys soon!!!! :D we will drive all day Tuesday then probably spend the night with my grandma, then drive 6 hours Wed. to be with my parents in St. George. We will probably head back up north on Sunday. so it will probably be sometime after Sunday that we get to hang out.
oh and by the way, I wish we lived close so we could have "slumber parties" on the nights our hubbies are gone. I HATE sleeping alone too.
Amazing day!!v total,y, would do it over again if had too. I love olive garden too!!
I forgot to do my confessions last night but will soon as Oni dad gets her. I love you!!!
I didn't want Roman to turn 1 either. I have to say, Spencer and I were talking the other day and we have LOVED the past few months. They have been the best yet. Also Lemon cookies sound DELICIOUS!
Great list! I can't believe it has been a year since you met Crystal! Wow! And almost a year since you became a mom. I still remember how nervous I FELT waiting and waiting for it to become a reality for you.
And now I really want breadsticks. Gee, thanks a lot! lol :)
Hey Tara, this is LeAnn. I think that you should update your "About Me" section.
Love always,
Hunter's Aunt LeAnn
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