Friday Night Confessions...kinda late...

Yeah, I'm a day late. Sorry about that. We threw a Bridal Shower for my sister...so I got very caught up in all that last night and today. So here we go...

• One year ago today we were packing all of our bags getting ready to head up to Oregon. My stomach was a full set of nerves, excitement, fear..you name it and I felt it.
• I knew from the time that Sam introduced himself to me that he would be the one I would spend forever with. And I am VERY glad I convinced him of that fact. :-)
• My parents got Dish this week and I LOVE it!! I can pause shows again, and I can record shows...like right now, we are recording "Planet Earth" and "Grease"...heaven.
• I don't want to throw another wedding shower for a WHILE. That's a lot of work. Haha
• I have fallen more in love with Sam during the last few weeks than I have the last couple of years. It's amazing, and I don't know why, or that it was even possible, but I am. And I am SOOOOO grateful that I am!
• I love watching Bubba grow up. I know I have talked alot about not wanting to see him grow up, but I love watching him learn new things. Lately (Now that he doesn't have any illness) he is so fun! He laughs at everything, and just watching him learn. I can't believe he is mine.
• I convinced my mom to buy Twilight. Why? Because I LOVE it. And I am obsessed.

Ok, I think I am going to end. Good night!

I love this little guy..

Today was such a nice day out, and Bubba got to wear his new sunday clothes, so we decided to take some pictures of him. I know..shocking. But as his birthday nears, I feel like I have to take more and more pictures to catch everything. So here are some pictures from today...Man I love this little guy.

Especially his little hands and his little feet.

And I love that he loves me.

And the cute faces he makes. (This is the one saying he is tired.)

Man, I just love him SOOOO much! Sometimes I just can't stand it.

Friday Night Confessions

You all thought I forgot didn't you! Well I didn't, I just got done with a Girls Night Out with my Mom, sisters, and aunts. Actually one isn't my REAL Aunt, but she is close enough, so I will just call her one. She is actually my mom's college roommate, and she is SOO cute and fun! I love her! Anyway...not what you came on to read right now..so I best hop to it...

• One year ago TODAY we met with Crystal. (For those who don't know, Crystal is Bubba's birthmother.) I remember sitting in an office, scared out of my wits, wondering if she was going to like us. And what we would do if she didn't like us, and what we would do if she did, and what if...and then we met her. She is an AMAZING woman! We sat and talked with the caseworker, and then we went out to eat lunch. This is 10 days before Bubba was born. Crazy, but WONDERFUL day.
• I love Olive Garden. I think I could eat there every day. Mainly their bread sticks, and their salad. MMmmm...lovely.
• I really don't want Bubba to turn 1. I want to keep him little for as long as possible. In fact, I have delayed planning a birthday party for him...just because I don't want to face reality.
• I have a big issue with people abandoning me. I always worry that people in my life are just going to leave me. Leave me with no explanation, no meaning, no reason. And I will be left alone. I've dealt with this, and it is HARD. Always feels like a piece of my heart has been ripped out, and I will never get it back. It hurts.
• Along with the last one, I have a fear of being alone. I always tell Sam that I HAVE to die before him, because I really don't want to be alone.
• I want flip flops in every single color. Why? I have no reason. I just do.
• I have found a new addiction. LEMON COOKIES. Seriously, best thing EVER. There is a place up here named "Cutler's" And they make these lemon cookies. My sister Tanielle would get them, and I would eat them. Well, Tanielle tried to make her own Lemon Cookies. And lo and behold...they are even BETTER than the ones Cutler's makes! I am ashamed to say that I ate 11 cookies...in one sitting. (OK, so I am not really ashamed to say it...but hey, it adds emphasis to the post)
• It is Friday night, Sam left at 11:30 this morning, and I miss him terribly. I almost don't want to go to bed, because I don't want to go to bed by myself. I wish that he was here with me every night, and didn't have to go work on weekends.
• I am being told that I have too many confessions tonight. ;-) So I will end here.

Good Night all!

Update

I thought that I would jump on really quick and give an update on Bubba. He is doing MUCH better. He only wakes up once at night now, his coughing doesn't keep him awake. When he first got sick, he would only sleep for 10-30 minutes and that was it. He would wake up, cry, cough, and try to go back to sleep for another 10-30 minutes. But he now sleeps again! Yay! He is also eating again, and he plays more. He hasn't had a fever for about 3 days now, and is just overall doing better. I am very excited for this! Hopefully we can keep him well for a while! I mean, it just wouldn't be fun to be sick on your birthday...

Anyway, a couple of days into it, I took these pictures. He was sleeping on our bed, but he kept wiggling. This is how he ended up. Funny thing, he was asleep for the whole thing! Silly boy..

Poor Sam. His arm started hurting after a while, but we didn't want to wake him up, and we didn't want him falling off of the bed!

TV...

This is a weakness...it pains me to admit this, but I have a weakness for a certain TV show that has sucked me in. I wait all week to be able to watch it, and when I wake up Sunday mornings, I think "YES! I get to watch my show tonight!!" Sad I know, but I can't help it. What show you ask? What show could possibly derail my life and make me wait anxiously week by week to see what happens?

"The Amazing Race"

Awful I know. But I really can't help it. I have only watched a couple of seasons, and this is the 14th season. But I have to come to try and watch it every single week. It's awful! I admit that I have a problem, and that's the first step correct? Aw well...at least I'm not in denial. And now that this week is over...I will anxiously await next weeks episode...

Friday Night Confessions

Here we go again!

• I hate sickness.
• I am VERY excited that we finally got a Birth Certificate, and Social Security Number for Bubba! Now I can do my taxes.
• I am scared of my siblings driving. No offense, I am just not used to it. I hold onto the seat a LOT.
• I get car sick easily. Growing up, I had a special seat in the car because I was the one we were always pulling over for. I can still point out the spot in Sardine Canyon that we would always pull over at.
• Sam wishes that I cook more for him. And I really don't like to cook. I will try to think of everything I can to get out of cooking...we had a lot of frozen pizza, pot pies, and mac n cheese.
• I actually watched The Bachelor this last season...and I enjoyed it.

I think that is all for this week. My family has been sick, and I am exhausted and just can't think anymore! Enjoy!

My Mom

This week my mom had surgery on her arm. She had a cyst on her wrist (rhyming not intentional) that was causing her pain and so it was to be removed. Surgery lasted about 1/2 an hour, and she was cyst-free!! Yay!! Well...with having her arm in a cast, she has found some things that are harder to do...such as doing her hair. So we went and had it cut so that it would be a little easier for her to do 1 handed. So here is her new do, and her with her cast.

This posting is mainly for my Grandma and Grandpa, so they can see what their daughter looks like. :-) Enjoy!